Talking about others

Talking about others
Whenever I’m in a conversation talking about others I see how we talk about others without any selfdirection. It’s a reflection of who we are, if you didn’t direct yourself within what you realize in the moment when being with others you will end up looping yourself. It’s always an indicator of where you stand. If you talk about people from the startingpoint of I didn’t direct myself when the actual event occurred, you missed the point you missed the breath and the opportunity to direct yourself.
It’s the exact same thing. The nature of what you see in others is what you living yourself: missing the point to direct yourself.. And so we keep everything as it is until the point will occur again.
Talking about others without any selfdirection or practical solutions is pointless.

Questions to assist with exploring the issue of money

Questions to assist with exploring the issue of money
for everyone- -by Gabriel Zamora Moreno

"If i had no money, who would i be ?"
totally fucked
I would have no self esteem, no house, no money, no friends, nothing. Society would spit me out,they would see me as a looser. Unwanted an outcast.


"if i had a billion, who would i be ?"
I would feel great, no more worries about money

"if someone gave me a billion, who would i be?"
Grateful and greedy

"if someone stole all my money, who would i be?"
Very angry

"if i worked and didn't get my pay at the end of the month, who would i be?"
Very fucking angry

"if i suddenly had children to take care of financially, who would i be?"
worried

"if the government would seize all my property, who would i be?"
Beyond fucking angry

"if i was in enormous debt, who would i be?"
scared

"in all those situations, would i remain the same?"
NO, NO, NO
I would react big time because really come on lack of MONEY will reveal your real colours- not a pretty sight.

Conclusion- we are fucked and trapped in and by the money system.
Solution!

An agreement on a new set of rules of an One and Equal money system for all from birth to death. This will change all outflows of us humans and how we exist.

Who would I be, without money?
There is not such a thing of who I would be when existing as in having lack of money or having no money at all. There is no "WHO AM I" . No not at all. There is only survival to be concerned about, currently many do live like this in the world.
Who would I be when I would have been born into a family without money at all. No there is no equality in this world, it depends on where you are born.

Many see that the world is one, It's time to realize and walk the practical solutions that we are ALL One and Equal.

Trust

Trust
After a conversation I had, I see that I can only trust that what is here within the walking within the physical expression, the selfexpression here as me and others.
I see how I always relied on words spoken in the past within certain moments and that I trusted these words as an agreement of trust.
I realized that I cannot put trust in this.
The only trust I can have which is real is what is here immediate in the moment and that trust as within words spoken by someone else is not something to put trust in. It will fuck you
I can only find out when we walk together,within the actuality of us and see who the other is and who I am while we are living the words spoken.

embracing

I realised something today. I never embraced my so called 'darkside' as me. I was seeing it I was seeing what I was doing feeling it supressing it. But I never embraced it. Never embraced these feelings and emotions as me. Strange how perfectly simpel the splitting of the I works. It's so simpel but never ever has it been in my reach to embrace it as me.
Its here all is here and all is me.

why on earth did I think that I 'outgrowned' my childhood expierences and needs to kill little insect, to investigate little frogs to pull their legs untill the frog died. Or I just pulled a fly's leg untill all the legs where seperate from the fly. Why on earth did I do that?
because its my nature to do so.

And did I ever ever embraced that?

nope

I was very ashamed of it, felt very bad by it, felt guilty about it and thought that one day I would be punished for it.

The question I asked myself today--> Did I change? Did the nature of me changed did I transcend that need of killing a frog and where the hell did this come from this desire to do so. To abuse defendless beings?

And again did I ever embraced the abuse of defendless beings as me?

We at Be – lol

The world event at the Zamoras was great. I didn’t had that many expectations. Just about Ann and that she would be all purple –lol -but she wasn’t. I was more occupied with getting the right train, and taking the right cell phone number from Leila. I text her my arrival time and when she didn’t text me back I got a little bit nervous like shit what if I took the wrong phonenumber, and I had not taken their address either. So Leila called me and all was good again lol

We all got together on the trainstation and the thing I noticed like wow they are so tall, and when I met Paul I was like huh? Weren’t you blonde?
Never consider age on the forum but in the flesh all looked so young, suprise!
I was laughing a lot, I was so exited to see them all fo real and it was really surreal-lol! We where all laughing and giggling a lot. And looking at eachother like …….huh? For real? And then we started laugingh again.

What else? I became nervous when I was talking about other forum members and their words and post on the forum. From the exitement I had stomach pain , breathing was helping but it was not completely gone. Hmmmm what else……. Still there …….do I response to the other in the right way?
It was subtle and very small but yeah still there! So then I got energy movement trough out my body and couldn’t breath through it.

I blushed as a tomato when I was making a comparison to a stiff dick and a wet c*nt. Got all red so…..I just let it happen it was there anyway, yep Sf point again….. Cool it will assist me in transcend the fucking embaresment point within me.

What else?

Was a bit sad in the train when I left, felt salty tears coming up. And could have become over emotional but I didn’t-Puh. Have to dig deeper into this aswell.

yesterday I watched the vid Ann made so I blushed again,see above.

Was reading Leila blog about the first day and I had reactions coming up mostly exitement and……………………….. what will she say about me? Yep.

Same reaction on Ann’s blog

And enjoyment aswel.


Then today I was on chat and Gabs said something on a vid he made on the whole happening. And then I got really scared. Boem, Boem, boem, my heart pounded in my throat, hundred needles in my flesh and my neck area.
And its all about me to see and to embrace as me.

To place everything inside me, to see that all is here and that here is me.


btw
Must be continued.
Do not know when cause I’m leaving tomorrow on a long holiday with kids we will explore Europe.

Sail on-Truly-

I was having lunch at a restaurant this week and on the background music was playing. The Comodores en Lionel Ritchie. I didnt really take noticed  it but it was there.

When I got home there was 'something' lingering but had no words to describe this 'state' I  was expierencing and couldnt find the  words for it. I search for this particular song by the Comodores and the moment I heard the piano and the soothing voice of Lionel Richie I  started crying.

OMG I  didnt had a clue, this song is  so deeply ingrained in me.

I grew up with this song and later when LR became a solo artist his voice is among others the soundtrack of a part of my life. The part of my life where I was dating for the first time with the first boyfriend, dating holding hands and this music is absolutly a big part of it, the music activate systems and ideas inside of me of how I perceived love. Not even love for someone, but love in general as something which is out there to find to grasp, to reach.

Someday I will be on that lovely place where I wil find real love and this music activates all these desires in me.

That something is not even clear, but the feeling that I had to look for it was activated within the firts love relationship and the music 'spiced' it up even more.

How weird that when ever I hear this song, this is triggered inside of me. Conscious or unconcounscious. Its there.