some more SF

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to to stand one and equal to that what I have become, my real nature BECAUSE OF FEAR OF my acceptances and allowances

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use fear as a hiding place so that I could justify my survival and self-interest of mind.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to justify my existence and use fears as a acceptable way to get away with it.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to stay in my comfort zone this way

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never questioned a fear for what it really is.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to justify fear as a excuse to remain everything as it is and therefore never had the intention to really change at all.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself that survival of the perceived me always prevailed above LIFE

I forgive myself that haven’t allowed myself to see that the truth of me as literally lived was one of self interest wrapped in a acceptable emotion as fear.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to believe that fears are here to protect me.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to listen to the feeling of fear out of the belief that I would then listen to my ‘inner voice’

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see that this listening to my inner voice is listening obeying others as in a slave that listens to her master. And that this inner voice is of ‘god’ of system. And its only interested in self-survival.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed that self-interest only is interested in survival of self which is the self of mind of sysems of god and it needs you to allow and accept to participate.


I forgive myself that haven’t allowed myself to see that the truth of me as literally lived was one of self interest wrapped in a acceptable emotion as fear.


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to believe that fears are here to protect me instead of realizing that fear only protects systems.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to listen to the feeling of fear out of the belief that I would then listen to my ‘inner voice’

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see that this listening to my inner voice is listening obeying others as in a slave that listens to her master. And that this inner voice is of ‘god’ of system. And its only interested in self-survival.

I forgive myself that haven’t allowed myself to see that the truth of me as literally lived was one of self interest wrapped in a acceptable emotion as fear.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to believe that fears are here to protect me.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I’m trapped in a cage and that there is no way out.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was trapped for ever into infinity because of this system, god, something, that had more power then me.

SELF FORGIVENNESS reading BRUCE L. God of Man – The Physical: Part Three

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can’t change and therefore that I am the mercy of the system, of god itself.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself that I believe that I can’t take self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize where I stand one and equal with and that what I have become.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to stand one and equal with the system, this reality as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that in this I state that that which I’m not willing to stand one and equal with is more then me.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself that I’m unwilling to stand one and equal with of and as myself as god, the system this reality as the physical and by this it will show me that it is more then me, because this is what I am living as myself.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to stand one and equal as ‘god’ the ‘system’ as myself here in totality- one and equal.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to stand one and equal as ‘god’ the ‘system’ as myself here in totality- one and equal. And therefore can not self direct me in this world.

I can only be the self directive principle of me as I stand one and equal to the system that what I became other wise were don’t allow myself to stand one and equal to I can not direct as me. Because I will always loose this system is always bigger and greater then me when I do not standing one and equal to it.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to stand absolut as god, the system, this reality as the physical here one and equal to get to know and understand how god, the system operates exactly.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to be no longer a slave ,standing as ‘god’ the system it self, and from there live from the startingpoint of all as one equal as life here.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to stand one and equal as ‘god’ the ‘system’ as what it currently exist as and how it operates within the startingpoint of self as all as one here.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to keep a hidden agenda- and so destroy and fuck myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to stand one and equal to my creation as my creation as what it consist of and exist as, all of it.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my own creation, and therefore giving it the power to exist as more than me, and in this action- I’m giving it the power to be-what I cannot conceive myself to be Thus give it the ‘life’ to develop and evolve in itself for itself by itself- to be all that I believe myself not to be.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that if we created the computer then the very operation as how the computer exist and all that it consist of- must exist within and as us here in the physical.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself believing that all that exist here in the world this reality that it directly reflect that what I believe I’m not capable of being or expressing in all forms and manifestation.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself by believing that what I create can simply no be me and therefore must be more than me.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to do exactly like Anu and his experience about his creation. He created and designed in his image and likeness, marveling at the greatness of his own creation that he designed. And in this honoured something as a design, a system to be more than himself. And therefore giving it the power the authority to be god of him and within this the very accepted and allowed act of seperation, making what he created and designed as a system- to be more than him - and I always prove me to myself- his creation, his design- doing just this - proving that it is ‘god’ .

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made this reality and what exist within it more than myself.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made the physical more then me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made the universe more then me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made the past more then me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made the history more then me
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made the history more then me
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made the science more then me
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made the money system more then me
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made the education -system,laws,rules, regulation, viruses, illness, disease, goverments, medical-industries-and the list goes on- all more then me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to be controlled and overpowered by all of the above things.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself that the only change I have to self-realise and stop god, the system that what I have become both within and without- Is right here. In the flesh.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that as the physical is that which is myself manifested as god, the system-within I absolutely directly face myself as I am and how I am in and as all my presumed greatness.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that this ‘god’, the ‘system’ can only exist , if slaves exist.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that within and through my very existence in and as the physical, the
very self – definition I live here in the physical as that of a slave through accepted and allowed self-defeat, abdicating me to my own creation to be more than manifesting my own creation as ‘god’ is the only way ‘god’ can exist and maintain and continue its existence as is.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I have to walk absolutely one and equal as the system, god, this reality in and as the physical here.

Pushing through resistance/ stabilizing myself/being more consistent

Ok that’s not about changing a other person or tolerate the other one and a other beings presence so to speak, no its actually you changing yourself and showing yourself that you can push through a point by stabilising yourself in the moment here.
How?
Through breathing, breathe through the resistance aplly self-forgiveness in the moment of resistance instantly immediately no delays and by doing so you push yourself through the point of resistance.
You breathe and you direct yourself in the moment, by pushing through the points of resistance for example fear, anxiety, irritation, helplessness, wanting to give up . You direct yourself you breathe and by doing so you direct yourself instead of letting outside events be the directive principle of you.
You self-direct you immediately in the moment. I am the directive principle of me.

When I feel resistance for example to reply on a post on the forum because of reactions – self-interest- I push myself through the points of resistance I immediately apply Sf and immediatly push myself through the point of resisantce direct myself and be the directive principle of me instead of letting outside events determine how I feel in the moment
Become stable, breathe by breathe

If I have to go do something in the matrix which I rather not do because of the resistance I feel. For example I got a invite for a event
I prefer to stay at home. Why? Whats my startingpoint ?
I know when I go I will ‘fall.’ Because I know already that sooner or later – lol- I will be full with anxiety and bs and not knowing how to ‘be’ in the moment.

I do not trust myself in every moment of breathe. I also realized when this is not yet the case if I can’t walk in absolut self trust I have to face all moments of self doubt other wise it has and is of no value.
It must be proven, It’s my own self realization- for self as self here
I have to absolut trust myself in every moment of breath other wise I, me, will prevail above all
If I’m not the directive principle of me the outer events will be directing me.

Writing alone wont do.